A Decision is One For Those Who Know

[- - -evening ||]

MOONFIRE

This Heartbreak will end, badly or in tact ; don't underestimate me -the fire still burns within.

The wind was blowing softly through her fur, and the morning hue in the morning sky was beautiful. Rainbows danced beneath the clouds as she padded through the bright sunlit forest. Her clouded memories were priceless -they were not going to help her in a situation like this. These days, her whole mind was tumbleweed of confusion. Gone were the days when everything made since and all the cats you met didn't give you a second look. Was she really that attractive? She didn't think so. She sighed -stupid, stupid Raccoonstar. Stupid, stupid! He shouldn't have made her deputy. He shouldn't have told her that he loved her. It made it harder for them both. Cats now wondered if their leader has any sense, cats regard her differently. They question his judgment -they question hers.

She was the clan idol now -in a bad way. This had to end. Now. Her choose was not weighed upon position, nor was it weighed upon bribery or act of judgment. It was the one she truly loved; but it was a hard choose, as she realized that she did love Raccoonstar. She loved them both -but did they love her enough to give away the possibility of kits? It was something that they had to think carefully about. She sighed; but they must not think long -it had already been not even two moons since she had first talked to Thunderheart that day. In practical, they had no way of meeting and falling in love that fast; but...she realized..that they were always looking at each other, even before they had talked that one evening. Always, since apprenticeship. Since.....

No. She was being mousebrained -or, was she really? She shook the thought out of her mind -and Raccoonstar, again, did she really love him? It was love that was impossible, turned to possible -who had ever heard of a deputy and leader in love? Like she said, it questioned both of their authority. She continued to pad along silently through the leaves. It was leaf-fall, and the multi-colored leaves littered the ground like a fallen rainbow. Everything looked peaceful and in place, unlike the life she lived.

A shadow passed through the forest, covering enlightening the forest with a white glow and then flashed dark, so she could see nothing. When the regular sun's light had returned, the place Moonfire had stood, was just a pile of leaves -she stood still no more.

Any cat just had to wonder what unusual event had just occurred -it was not a storm of any kind, nor was it like the eclipse that happened once every 1200 moons; no, only Moonfire knew -it was a sign from StarClan.

SLASHSNOW

I decide that none can help me ease this suffering, and I shall ease it myself -don't worry, I live.

The wind blew cold, wrapped around her like the death choke of a snake, and the days grew shorter and shorter by the hour. He would not look at her, she was not important, not anymore, not at all; but she had to be strong. It was decided. She could not go weeping around like the willows in RiverClan, and she would not get cold and hard like those of ShadowClan; She would not run from her feelings like WindClan, no, she was a ThunderClan warrior, proud and noble, and not going to get a bit of a love drama in her way. She would miss him, she would miss him like he was part of her, for he was all in all, but he was not part of her soul. She would not loose herself over some stupid melodrama. It was decided.

The wind blew even colder and the sky grew dark and flashed like how she saw her love. The tears stood in her eyes as she imaged the life she was leaving behind; and then it came to her. The sky went completely dark and a voice called to her through the wind. Perhaps she would not leave him behind after all.

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My style has changed -maybe you have noticed, maybe not; but I feel proud for the darkness that has spread beneath the layer of writing I have written, yes?

I would like it if they all meet up -Slashsnow later- in the hunting grounds, like all are called together by the one 'sign' from StarClan, no?
I rest my case.

[Kat]

Thunderheart carefully picked his way down from his tree. He stopped and watched the beautiful bright orange and red colored leaves fall from the trees, blowing in the cool wind. He wished he could float to the ground like they could, flying and laughing through the air and landing softly. He continued his way down the tree, stopping each time the wind blew the branches too hard. He might be brave, but he isn’t stupid. He didn’t need to prove himself to anyone, let alone himself.
That isn’t true. As soon as he thought that, an image of Moonfire flashed through his head and the ever-present thought – did she love him? He shouldn’t need to prove himself to her, but he constantly wanted to. He wanted to show her he wasn’t a kitten, he wasn’t a self-centered apprentice, and despite his flirting he really wanted true love.
Then again, an even better question he should ask himself was did he love her? Well, yes, but did he love her enough to sacrifice his dream? His dream he had had since he was little – to be a father, to have kits and a loving mate? Of course, he chose the one she-cat who can’t grant his wish... Did he love her enough to sacrifice that? To know that he would never be the father he had always wanted to be? There were other pretty she-cats in SnakeClan, others that could help him fulfill his dream… but they couldn’t really fulfill his dream. Yes, he wanted kits, but with a loving mate, with a cat he loved and a cat who returned his love. Should he just forget his dream now and settle with second best?
No, it was too hard to do that. He had been like this since his apprenticeship, since he first started training. He remembered the day that he first thought of the idea of being a father.

He watched his mentor’s tail swing back and forth. “I know you are tired, Thunderpaw, but you have to learn this battle move. I know you don’t want to right now, but you need to. When you learn, when you hunt, when you battle, you always have to ask yourself- what are you fighting for? Why are you trying to become a warrior? For me, it was for honor. I wanted to be the model warrior my father never was and my mother never could be. For some, it is for pride- they are so self-centered they need to prove to themselves and everyone else that they are great. For most medicine cats, it is to help others because they care. No one can choose it for you, Thunderpaw, no one can tell you what to do or what to fight for. You have to choose yourself. Now go back to camp and get some sleep. I expect for you to be ready tomorrow to learn this!”
Thunderpaw padded back to camp, mulling over what his mentor had said. As he walked into the apprentice’s den, he stepped over a sleeping Moonpaw. I want to be a father. He thought, making sure to not step on Moonpaw’s flicking tail. I want to provide for the people I care about.

Thunderheart shook his head at the memory and continued down the tree. His paws hit the ground, right as the world flashed black and he could no longer see. The pure darkness was gone as soon as it had appeared. He looked to the sky, half confused and half fearful. The sun shone brightly, far up in the sky, way out of reach. Thunderheart shook his head, but it was as hard to forget about what just happened as it was to forget his dream.
I need to stop worrying! he thought, looking around the forest floor. His eyes lit up when he saw the large pile of leaves piled below the tree he was just in, he remembered the game he played as an apprentice. He gave himself a running start and pounced into the leaves, euphoria surging through him. No matter what, a pile off leaves dispels all ill thoughts and feelings!

[Raccoonstar]

RACCOONSTAR

I am lost in this labyrinth of love, and there is no escape...

Raccoonstar padded through the dry oak leaves that siganled fall. He was on his way to RockClan to store food there as well for the surely harsh winter. It was slightly selfish of him to be keeping prey from his Clan, but he was sure they would cope. Raccoonstar padded forth, caught a nearby vole, and continued with the vole in his mouth. He felt darkly depressed. Moonfire flashed in his mind. Did she love him? Could he love her? Raccoonstar sighed. He felt stupid and dark. He looked up to the clouded sky and saw a flash of darkness. Raccoonstar blinked. What was that? Raccoonstar thought. Not and eclipse, that had happened almost four moons ago, it couldn't happen again (*cough Eclipsepaw cough*). No. This was the kind of sign StarClan could give, and it seemed to lead him to a different part of his hunting grounds. Raccoonstar couldn't pull away from the seemingly magnetic tug of what StarClan was giving to him. He thought briefly of his first time he had started to love Moonfire.

(I'm going to rp Moon here, hope it's okay, eve!)

Raccoonpaw padded up to Moonpaw. She looked happy. He spoke to her. "Hi Moonfire! Wanna play a game I invented?" He sounded just like he had in kithood.
"Sure. What game?" She had said.
Raccoonstar had an immediate feeling he couldn't describe. Like all of his happiness had just converted itself into a ball and then exploded inside him. Love.
"Erm...um...oh right!" Raccoonpaw stuttered, forgetting the game for a moment. "Okay...now all we have to do is...

And the flashback ended. Raccoonstar stood slightly dazed as he found himself in a large clearing with Moonfire and Thunderheart's scent getting stronger by the second. Today, the truth will be revealed! Raccoonstar thought. Who does Moonfire love? Me or Thunderheart?

OOC: Find out next time in another exciting installment of The love triangle! ^^

[Seafeather]

OCC: Haha! Nice Coony! ^^ On the next episode....lol! You can delete this if you wish ^^